From three weeks ago:
Today I was feeling flooded by strong emotions. I had reached out to friends, but still was feeling uneasy. Then I think my Father wanted to send me a tender mercy.
I walked into a tree.
I was looking down at my phone and CRASH. It was a little painful and to be honest it scared me to death. After the initial shock I starting laughing at myself and then looked up.
****Beautiful & GORGEOUS BLOSSOMS***
They have become my recovery symbol of GROWTH, NEW LIFE, and HOPE.
Feeling emotions of anxiety, restlessness, and the unknown are overwhelming, but they are ok.
I went to a fireside lately where a man struggling with an addiction said:
"I had to learn how to be ok with not being ok. "
Read more about his story here: http://www.ashlynnandcoby.com/story/
I have learned how to be ok with not being ok. I do this by acknowledging and accepting ALL emotions, reaching out, doing self care, and then I surrender.
I do know that Christ and my friends are sitting with me and that the power of hope can secure me enough to be able to surrender everything over to my Father. He knows what he is doing.
He will never fail me.
The tree I ran into.
