Sunday, July 12, 2015

Reach Out



A few weeks back I waved in the air my flag of defeat. 
Sometimes the flag of defeat needs to be raised, but when it does please REACH OUT
 I'm here to tell you that I did not.
 Quickly my life was turned upside down and became unmanageable.
 I stopped reaching out to my support group.
I stopped praying.
I stopped reading God's word. 
 I started sleeping more and eating more.  
If there was a gauge tracking any form of effort on my part it would have been around 5%.   
It felt so overwhelmingly hard to put in any effort. 

 I started small by  
reaching out to women I trusted, they validated me and carried me.  
They became Christ's hands. 
My gauge went up to 10%.
  I started attending a 12-step spouse support group again. 
My gauge went up to 25%.  
I started reading God's word consistently.  
My gauge went up to 50%.